you called ..

you called me .. i didnt answer the first time , because idk i was feeling down .. you signed off aim in the morning , & i didnt even get to respond to you .. )'= i really jst dont know what to do no more.. ever since you walkd out of my life saying your " single " there's so many guys coming at me , its crazyy i dnt wna get into another relationship after what happpend to uss.. im hurting so much .. you dnt even knoww what to do , should i keeep trying & tryingg , what do u want me to do ? there's so many things i want you to answer but you can never answer them in a straight answerr, do you still want me? as much as i want you ? do you want a new girl ? do u want me to give up on you now? if you do just tell me so i can cry & get hurt at once becausee this pain is jstt urghh

is there another girl ? i dont want you lying to me, i mean ima find out eventually , might s well tell me now... i understand if there is

i jst dnt knoww , im going crazyy because " love " idk if its love orr im jstt hella trippn offa someshitt

crazy - kc & jojo

im sowwy if i didnt do as much for you , but that doesnt mean you jst give up on me, if you wnt someone better then jst go goo ,, goo loook for herr. she's somewhere out there. finally sophomore year & my parents where gna accept you .. but now this? its all to an end ! jst like that , blink of an eye.. didnt even see this comingg

do you want me to forget about you ? if you do then ill delete everything about you , ima throw everything that you gave me if you want... delete your number , your myspace .. your aim , jst so that i dnt think of you no more. i know its gna be hard for me..

alot of things are roming in my head right now , crazy shittt. idk how to explain it

you say you want me happy, but im not .. i dnt think im gna be happy ever again , i mean from the outside of me it may look like im happy but inside its justt eeeh , pain nothingg alone..

idk if your gna read this blog , i dnt think it'll matter .. so idk why im doing this .. im jst tryna explain or tell how im feeeling at thi momentt ... its 12:18 and im upp